I simply love the joy and the hope that a new year brings. Whether you set up goals or not, it feels you up with the energy of newness, freshness, and new focus on things to be better. Your health, your bank account, your relationships, your free time, your joyful moments, and it goes on and on.
These last few weeks I’ve been pondering on the value of life. The value I gave it at certain parts of my life, over the years. This was triggered by an event that happened recently, where a young dancer decided to end his life. Of course, one must ponder on two ends of the scale, the contrast of life and death. What must a person believe in order to take such extreme action? How does one come to the conclusion that ending life is the only solution? How did life lose its value in his eyes?
I must say, I struggled to comprehend it as it only seems that he has had it all together, and that everything always shines bright in his world. What was the moment or even a string of different moments that led to that decision? I guess we will never know. I only wish his wife and children peace while they now must live with his absence forever. Most of all I am grateful for the joy and light he brought into the world and let him rest in peace for good.
Now, I hope this didn’t take you towards an unpleasant place. It was not my intention. I simply wanted to share that how, for me, living in the contrast of all those thoughts today, I enjoy and cherish every moment. I make sure that everything I do is enjoyable or at least makes me feel something deeply, even if it is sadness of hearing such news. I allow the feelings run through my body, and wash through me, as I know this is not for me to worry, but also not for me to deny the fact that many people out their struggle with enjoying life or valuing it at some point in their journey.
I remember feeling like that at least twice in my younger years, where everything felt pointless and not worth living. These were indeed dark days and at the time they felt like month or even like they will never end. I know now that all things are temporary. I know that feelings come from thoughts and we can change our thoughts if we choose to.
I was lucky enough to get through it and see another day, before making a call where there was no return from. That's all it took, lighten the perspective and break it down to small little steps. Putting one foot in front of the other and ask for help if I was still stuck.
Today, in 2023, only a few months away from welcoming a new life into the world, I feel submerged with feelings of joy, love, and hope.
It is indeed the best feeling. The knowing that I am about to gift a life to a soul just like I was gifted a life 49 years ago. The ecstasy is one of a kind. The buildup of excitement is rising every day and the gratitude that I’ve been floating in is beyond measure.
I don’t think I ever thanked my parents for enduring life with me over the years, I mean simply thanking them for all the hard yards they must have gone through so I can be here today. It may be taken for granted or even expressed in different ways, but I think it is worth saying and acknowledging it for what it is exactly. I’ll be sure to add that to the list of important conversations to have this year.
So, what is my point as it may seem that I am jumping around from one thing to another, I do that when I am excited about something. This time I am simply excited about life and living it with intentions. Be more deliberate in every creation. Getting closer to having what I want sometimes involves pondering or even experiencing what I don’t want. Recently it’s been the subject of life and death. Not only I choose life, I choose good life. Peaceful and joyful life. I choose laughter and afternoon naps. I choose friends that share their time and clients that lead with their hearts. I choose days of sunshine and nights of romance. I choose delicious food and funky music. I choose happiness every time. I choose long walks and puppy kisses. I choose hugs and intimate conversations. I choose self-care and self-love.
I move into the year of 2023 knowing that some things are out of my control and that I can trust they will work out for the best. I also know that somethings I can create that will please me for a while, but happiness is a feeling created by actions and I can control and take those actions, no one else can do it for me. I have peace and love in my heart and so I intend to cultivate it best I can, set boundaries wherever I should and allow lessons of love to lead me forward with my decisions.
I hope this lands in a safe place for you today and please know that I am always here if you need me or any other support. Please simply reach out.
Thank you again for being here.
Lots of love
Maya